HOW TO BE AN ARTIST

so today didn't exactly go as planned. stayed @ mii's till 12.30 am. left my cell phone in her bed and i didn't realize it. because of this, my alarm on my phone didn't go off and i woke up @ 10am for my 10am class. so i was 35 mins late to class. instead of stressing out all day, im gonna take this little glitch in my day as a sign that im gonna have an even better night.
good food, discount drinks, laughs & dancing? thats the way i like to spend my tuesday night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAYLOR & MIILEAH! thanx for giving me a reason to celebrate.

heres something random i found yesterday and didn't have time to post.
its called how to be an artist.

stay loose. learn to watch snails. plant impossible gardens. invite someone dangerous to tea. make little signs that say yes! and post them all over your house. make friends with freedom & uncertainty. look forward to dreams. cry during movies. swing as high as you can on a swingset,by moonlight. cultivate moods. refuse to "be responsible." do it for love. take lots of naps. give money away. do it now. the money will follow. believe in magic. laugh a lot. celebrate every gorgeous moment. take moonbaths. have wild imaginings, transformative dreams, and perfect calm. draw on the walls. read everyday. imagine yourself magic. giggle with children. listen to old people. open up. dive in. be free. bless yourself. drive away fear. play with everything. entertain your inner child. you are innocent. build a fort with blankets. get wet. hug trees. write love letters.

ying yang

lately i've been trying to find balance.
between simp & pimp.
between good & bad.
between nice & mean.
conform & stand out.
passive & aggressive.
and as always,
between wants & needs.

life runs smoothly when things are in balance.
it just takes the right amount of planning & energy.
i need to take the time to fit in walking the dog, class, homework, exercise, cooking, taylor, michael & brandon everyday.

over the past few years, i've become more complex. this is what has fueled my imbalance. as i grew out of my shyness and into a more self assured adult, ive begun to take risks. i've made mistakes and learned from them. some habits are hard to break. the next two years are going to be a challenge. but i have the motivation needed and if i play my cards right, i may have an added bonus for acting right.

i hope everyone else has the correct motivation to make it thru the day.
too many people are depressed, unhappy, and angry. cheer up! life's too short to waste time being negative!

deep convos, awkward moments, & nudity

those are the things that defined my last week.
boobs, bare ass, yelling, going hard, searching for gas, laughing till i cry, conversations on love lust & rape, going places i shouldn't go, clothes and runway walks, and lots of drinks.
its been a LOOOOOOONNNNNGGGGG week.
and I'm sure this one will be just as long.
I'm exhausted but i have to go to class.
right

now.

ttyl

refocus.

i FINALLY have internet again.
now i can order my mommy some flowers (or a plant) for her birthday.
i can do my homework.
i can order my books.
&& i can find solutions for all the random issues i need help with (mostly lola)
yay!
once i get my camera fixed, a mani/pedi, and my hair done, the universe will be back to regular rotation
this blog will be updated on a regular basis again! yay

without.

when im @ home, my wireless doesn't work, so i have to steal from my neighbor (thanx o'ryan!) and i was looking forward to coming back to my apt and being able to get on the internet on a regular basis. BUT of course that wasn't the case. the only person with internet is erin.
so on top of all the things LOLA has been destroying, i cant look up solutions to my problems. needless to say, i've been having a very rough first week of school.
i miss the few friends i spent time with over the summer. i miss my lover and my boobulah who keep me calm and sane!

i've been on edge. i have wanted to go hard on so many people, including friends, this past weekend. its a problem. so if i don't seem happy, stay out of my way, and don't make any smart remarks that you think i wont catch, because i will (i did.) and it may come back to kick your ass in the long run.

(you're so vain, i bet you think this blog is about you.)

ill be back when i get the internet again