OK GO

Where Have I been you may ask your self but, don't worry about all that baby.To start off I'm madly in love with this guy named Taylor..... dude is the fucking best. like think of the best you have ever met and he's way better than that. Thats my nigga. Metrosexuals are actually gay. Grow some chest hair and let that beard hang. i'm tired of these Clay Achen type dudes. changing gears does anyone have a copy of the Paris Hilton Sex tape? My bathroom is almost down, about a week more to go. I cant wait to have my mornings back to myself. Ehh thats all on my mind for now.

married with 2 kids @ 19?

on thursday, Erin & i went to melrose to hang out.
it was like 100 degrees, we were out of jamba juice and dying. so we start going into stores just because they have air conditioning. as we are walking this man asks us to look @ his clothes and tell him what we think.
he has air so we say sure.

all i see are rhinestones everywhere. he says that most of it is made with swarovski crystals. pshhh. we jokingly pick out the ugliest things to say they are cute and try to find a time to escape. he starts talking to some man and we try to sneak past. didn't work. he stops us and says there was something else. his uncle died and left him 4mil. but the only way he can get it is to get married by his next birthday. he says hes willing to split it with me. oh and we have to have 2 kids, and his birthday is next week.
this man is crazy....but if any of you are gold diggers, i am not against introducing u to him.....i get a finders fee : ).
anyways i thought that was unusual.
I'm low key bored right now. i need to get out the house but its too hot. i was supposed to go to the chiropractor but it was too far for me to drive in the heat. come visit me before work!

im just rambling now so im done. ciao!

happy fathers day.

Since its fathers day, I've been thinking about my dads. If u kno me/my complicated, disfunctional family, then u kno that I'm blessed enough to have 2 dads. For most of my life I clashed with my stepdad and thought my dad was awesome, even tho I barely saw him. In recent years it came out how many people tried to keep us from having a normal relationship, so we started an unconventional one.

But things have changed.

My stepdad and I are on the same page for once. He isn't trying to control me and he trusts me. We may not understand each other, but we have accepted our differences. Sadly, I have barely spoken to my real dad this year. He's let me down.

I've been struggling with the decision of calling him today. I went to the 8am service @ my church for the first time and it helped me decide. I'm going to call him.

Happy fathers day!

i actually have a topic for this one.

dreams.

most people love dreaming, but i don't. for about a year i would hope that i had a dream free night. i kno taylor has wonderful dreams that inspire him & his films. thats never the case anymore. in 07 every time i would have a dream it would be related to the same situation that i just couldn't seem to get over. the main issue was, when i thought i had moved on, i would have a dream that would make me wake up in just as much pain as when i was going thru the situation. i'm finally over that thank goodness. but this week i've been having dreams. they weren't all bad, in fact one was awesome but the others weren't, they've been all over the place. lately i have been dreaming about celebrities, ex best friends, best friends, enemies, enemies of my best friends, and other random things that make me wake up confuzzled. i would love to just have dreamless nights every night instead of my mind trying to interpret my day or tell me what my heart wants, or warn me of the future or whatever it is that dreams do.

oh yea! i finally got a job! yay

overview

these past couple of weeks have been...eventful.
miami. sex in the city. brazilian food. getting "busted". losing my bathroom and sleep. looking for a job. matinee's with taylor. six flags with alisha. burnt mission. LENDREK...hahahaha. piercings. GLOW IN THE DARK TOUR (amazing).
plus tons of laughter, baking & drinks.

hundreds of new memories, but no pictures. (my mom has kidnapped my camera until further notice)
i only regret 2 things, that i couldn't see a few more people that i miss, and that i never found out "chris browns" real name.
i dont really feel like typing anymore.
g'night